sometimes i feel guilty for getting lucky. i've always been lucky... things always work out in the end for me. i know a lot of people where that just doesn't happen for them. and i feel guilty that i am lucky and they can work their asses off and go nowhere. maybe i work harder than i think i do... or maybe they just don't work as hard as i think they do... but either way i am too lucky.
i have a job interview for ministry of transportation in a few weeks and i'm pretty sure i'm going to be getting an offer for something at union gas this summer again, at least it looks hopeful.
maybe i should just start working harder so i don't feel guilty about things falling into place for me anymore. maybe if i worked and was still lucky i'd feel better about it.
but thats just not going to happen because for now i have a horseshoe stuck up my ass. Janice posted this at 3:21 PM.
does anyone want to hire me? Janice posted this at 12:23 PM.
Tuesday, March 18, 2003
one more thing about spring.
on campus the sluts come out to play.
i've never seen so much skin appear so suddenly! even though i've never been to a strip club i find it comparable.... Janice posted this at 9:08 PM.
this weekend was SO warm. and SO nice. and i loved it and i am so glad its been warmer this week. i don't think i could've waited for spring any longer.
if it snows again i will seriously cry... .and then i'll smarten up and attack the city of london with a flame thrower to make it all melt away.
it's so nice to be happy again! Janice posted this at 8:56 PM.
Monday, March 10, 2003
when i was growing up my parents used to have popcorn after we went to bed. but for some reason the two of them could never finish a whole bag of microwave popcorn themselves. and in the morning i would get up and come downstairs for breakfast and there would be a bowl sitting on the counter and in that bowl was the few remaining popcorn bits. and so before my breakfast i would sit there and eat the rest of the popcorn that was made the night before, including all the half popped kernels. and i loved it.
now when i make popcorn i try and save a little bit in the bottom of the bag so that i can eat it the next morning when i wake up. there is nothing better than the taste of stale popcorn in the morning!!! Janice posted this at 7:20 PM.
why can't i motivate myself? i get mad at myself when i'm not motivated and doing the things i should be... yet i still can't make myself do the things i want and need to be doing. i am the epitome of lazy. Janice posted this at 5:19 PM.