Thursday, June 27, 2002

 
despite the fact that i turned off my alarm clock this morning and never woke up this morning and had exactly 5 minutes to get ready for work... i had a good day. even the fact that i did a huge cleaning spree... i still had a good day.

i love the feeling after a really good workout. that feeling that gets you pumped and makes you feel like you could do anything! i've got that feeling right now.
although i'm afraid that if i don't lose this feeling soon that i will not get to sleep tonight and then i'll sleep through my alarm clock again tommorow.

i going to my very first big (a.k.a. real) concert this weekend. edgefest... it's going to be fun. and erick better make sure he doesn't lose me. because i am such a big baby i am slightly afraid of this whole concert thing. i'm going to get lost or landed on or trampled to death or lose my hearing or get sun stroke or something... hahaha..... but really i'm looking forward to it... because i know that erick won't let any of that happen to me ..... right? right. that's what i thought. it's always great to have someone who's got your back. small town kid goes to the big city.... we'll see how i fare ladies and gentlemen! (mostly as always i'm excited to leave chatham - but dissapointed that karens got the WHOLE weekend off for once this summer and i won't be around! you find something fun to do karen! go to grand bend... or even mitchell's bay if it comes to be that desperate... lol....)
Janice posted this at 11:38 PM.

Wednesday, June 26, 2002

 
i hate thunderstorms. which is a shame because they really are amazing to watch. i used to love watching them... that is before my mom got hit from inside out house.
but i just hate them. i shake so much that i can't force myself to sit upstairs. i have to go downstairs... sometimes even into the basement to try and get away from it. i just hate them.
Janice posted this at 7:51 PM.

 
so i've noticed the last few days that i'm starting to grind my teeth. i don't know why but i don't like it. i have to keep constantly reminding myself not to clench my jaw and to stop grinding my teeth. it's becoming WORK to actually make myself relax my jaw. and i at some point this summer i need to get my wisdom teeth out too.
i decided last night that being in this house all alone isn't that much fun. it's too big when i'm here all by myself... creepy...
maybe i'm just a big baby... but all of you already know that.

Janice posted this at 7:13 PM.

Tuesday, June 25, 2002

 
so my parents have left me home alone. they took away my brother and sister and even my dog and they left me in humid chatham to work. and they've gone to my cottage (which i must mention is my most favourite spot in the whole world). but i do have a house to myself. advantages to being home alone with noone around:
1. i can play my music as loud as i want - on repeat if i want and sing along with no complaints
2. i can run around naked.
3. i can show my stomach (my parents don't know i have my belly button pierced...)
4. i don't have to ask for a vehicle because i'm the only one using it.
5. i can eat peanut butter and brown sugar sandwiches for lunch.
6. i can eat peanut butter and marshmallow sandwiches for lunch
(note: a touch of brown cow chocolate syrup tastes good on both 5 and 6)
7. no fighting for the internet/phone with my family (we only have one friggin line...
8. i don't have to be out of the shower by any specific time.
9. did i mention i can be naked?
10. i don't have to do the dishes (until friday...)
11. if i was in highschool still i could have a ROCKIN party... but i'm not in highschool anymore and all my friends are too busy working (including myself) but still the idea is there.
12. no yelling for me to clean up my room
13. the tv never has to be on. (i hate tv)
Janice posted this at 9:21 PM.

Sunday, June 23, 2002

 
i sometimes wish it was appropriate to walk around outside naked. it would save me from doing laundry, and with this hot weather it'd be perfect. meh. oh well.
Janice posted this at 9:27 PM.

Tuesday, June 18, 2002

 
have you ever seen those wooden men in stores like green earth that are sitting crosslegged and all bent over? the ones that are supposed to carry your worldly problems on their backs so that you don't have to?
i want to be one of those. i want to carry other peoples problems so that they don't have to. if i could just take problems away from people and carry them for them, i would in a second.
Janice posted this at 10:18 PM.

Sunday, June 16, 2002

 
i just had a great weekend.
i got out of chatham *bOnUs* (sorry you couldn't join me karen)... erick of course came down too... i saw my roomie naz, and nicole and josh too... went to the bar with spanky and wayno.. saw trinny luke through the window at the ceeps... but the bastards wouldn't let them in. got to spend the whole weekend with erick (it wasn't near long enough). and i drank sat night. *gasp* so much for my "i'm not drinking this summer" plan. it was only like 5 drinks. but there will be no more alcohol consumption until soph training weekend. and oh the alcohol will be flowing... right into my tummy. and oh baby it will feel great to be smashed out of my mind again. and no... i'm not an alcoholic. i'm a recovering alcoholic. thats a perk to being in engineering you know... you are allowed to drink yourself under the table and blame it all on the fact that you are in engineering... because it's okay! ...you are a professional!
this summer is going to seriously damage my skills for drinking. (aka make me a cheap drunk again... which will be good for me since i'm cheap)
and i think it is definetly worthwhile to note that if you are going to drink.... get smashed out of your mind... its makes for a hell of a better story the next day...
Janice posted this at 8:05 PM.

Wednesday, June 12, 2002

 


Janice posted this at 7:28 PM.

Monday, June 10, 2002

 
could somebody give me a big hug? i really need a hug. like really badly.
Janice posted this at 10:12 PM.

 
it is always exciting getting new clothes. especially when they make you look good. when you think you look good, you just feel good. you can walk with attitude! cuz you've got it goin on!
i bought a pair of pants today... shouldn't have. didn't really need them. and i've already spent everything i've made working this summer (oops... thats no good) but they made my ass look great. so i had to get them.
but in a way it depresses me... when i look at the tag... and see that less than a year ago i was 3 sizes smaller. *sigh* oh well... my sister is excited she's got all these brand new jeans. good for her.
i hope she gets fatter than me.
Janice posted this at 10:10 PM.

Sunday, June 09, 2002

 
is there a phrase stronger than "i love you?"
Janice posted this at 2:00 AM.

Saturday, June 08, 2002

 
i just wish sometimes that i was orgainized... because then it wouldn't take me all day to clean my room! *sigh* this place is discusting
Janice posted this at 1:28 PM.

Friday, June 07, 2002

 
you know what i realized today? that people are really beautiful. espeically when they smile. real smiles... not fake ones. and i love captured images. not posed pictures with everyone staring at the camera and smiling... but real life "caught in the moment" pictures. and i wish that i was an artist. i want to capture things around me somehow and make them last forever, in drawings or pictures, photos or even words.
maybe its because i dwell on the past and not my future.
maybe its because i want to be able to hold on to something that is tangible and not just images in my mind.
Janice posted this at 9:31 PM.

Thursday, June 06, 2002

 
so even though i've lived in chatham my whole life and yes there are a lot of farms around they all plant corn. and soya beans. so today i went surveying out somewhere near sarnia (yes i am horrible at directions too and i really had no idea where we were). but anyways i had to go through this field, and this field had cows in it. and i like cows. they are funny looking. but they also smell. and they make a real mess of a field.
but the best thing was that there was a bull in the field. he was a monster of a bull. (i guess... can't say i've run into that many) but the thing i never realized was just how big cow testicles are. this bull was practically dragging on the ground. and i laughed at him. silly bull. a real ladies man i suppose (if you were a cow that is...)
the guy i was working with today scared me. he kept telling me to make sure i didn't take my eyes off the bull... because they get territorial or something and might come after me if he didn't like me. but it wasn't even like he was trying to joke around or make me scared over nothing either. he was serious that this bull might come after me. so as i carefully tried to climb over the fence (and avoid getting shocked by the electric part) i also had to make sure i didn't get smashed to pieces by this bull. fortunetly for frail little me my big testicle bull friend just watched me the whole time. i guess it isn't a problem walking through a cow pasture with a bull in it - unless you are another bull in heat or something. or simply just some weirdo guy who needs a piece of good cow ass (hey... i know i'm not the only one who gets all those gross links to "great animal sex sites" on icq or e-mails. and no... i do not actually go to them. but i'm simply pointing out there are some real sickos out there). i don't think the bull would like his ladies being molested like that. good thing i'm not a bull in heat who has to survey cow feilds. and its a good thing i'm not some sicko who goes for the animal action. WHEW!
Janice posted this at 10:23 PM.

Monday, June 03, 2002

 
so i went to erick's dad's for the weekend. it was great. really really great. i drove standard for the first time. i'm not going to say i learned how to drive standard... but i did it. erick is a very very patient driving instructor. *smile*
Janice posted this at 6:39 PM.

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